Searching for a hero

       Have you ever experienced someone claiming that they know everything about you? Like, all of you even your dirty little secrets? Have I ever? I don't think so. Sad truth about my life is, nobody knows me. No one even dared to know the whole me. Not my family, not my friends, no one. It sounds really depressing and yeah, it is. I'm tired of me being so internally pathetic because outside of this internal battle, I am actually someone. I have lots of friends, people know me and that's just it.

      Sometimes, my mind is always occupied with why's. Why is there no one to make an effort to know me better? What they know about me is just a scratch in a surface. Is it really like that? What you show people is what they will know about you? I hope I'll find that person who could open me up without me holding anything anymore. I always have these dirty little secret that I've kept to myself since I was kid. I swear I'd never tell, and it always eats me up but now, I'm ready to be free of all my demons. I've been holding onto it for so long and I want it out of my system. I know I'll never forget it but I need to move on. And I need help, maybe someone strong enough to be my hero.

-Plain Jean